by Jennifer Black
Today is October 9th and it’s raining. I felt pretty good today, so I went outside for the first time in a long time.
I’ve had a lot of tests at the hospital regarding my past bout of cancer, and it’s hard for me to be on my feet for too long. I’m trying to get well, because I miss working at the Market. I hope, by the grace of God, I’ll be able to start working again soon.
It’s been a while since I last worked at the West Side Market, at least a couple of months. I miss being there. Michael is always cheerful when he comes home from his shift at the Market. I miss feeling that way after working my shift.
I’m sad because I miss my work, the people, and being at the Market. Michael’s cheerfulness reminds me of how good I’d feel after a shift – helping people and having them to talk to. Selling the Chronicle gave me something to look forward to, something to do besides thinking about how much pain I was in or how tired I felt.
The tiredness comes from my emphysema, that’s why I’ve been so sick lately. But, I’m tired of laying around and having nothing to do. I miss having a life, and feeling like I had something to look forward to.
I’ve been helping my daughter out a little bit, lately. She’s pregnant, and this pregnancy has been hard on her. My 11-year-old grandson stays with us on the weekends, and he’s been very helpful. Having him stay with us helps her to get some rest, and helps me to get things done at home.
I’m stressed out about not working, but eager to get back on the ball! I’m hopeful that the cancer is still in remission. I hope the cancer hasn’t come back, and doesn’t come back, that’s why I’m going through all these tests. No matter what the outcome, I’ll try to put my best foot forward.
One day at a time.