Dying
Comes Easy, It’s the Living that is Hard
by “Buzzy” Melvin Bryant
At the
beginning of life when I was safe and secure within my mother’s womb, I really
didn’t know that the majority of my life I would be without a house or home.
A human being walking through life not living, but just existing. Born in Savannah, Georgia on August 17th, 1947 and moving to
Cleveland at a very early age, I was really not aware this would be my plight.
At a very early age in life, I got fascinated with being out in the
streets. As I went back and forth
to the corner store for my mother, I saw what was known as the “street
life,” and was drawn to the women and men who participated in the street
nightlife.
Soon I
started sneaking out at night when everyone in the house was asleep—getting
introduced to what was known as the “FAST LANE,” the nightlife of the
street hustlers. Because things
weren’t happening to people in a violent way, especially to small children, I
was adopted by these people and ran errands for them and learned the survival
techniques that would save my life later on when I became homeless.
As I grew up, I began living out in the streets more and more. Although I
had a home to go to, I spent many nights at a time on the streets, continuously
worrying about my mother who was a very spiritual woman.
If it wasn’t for her prayers I
Time passed,
my values changed, life became such a confusing game suddenly I wanted the finer
things in life and I knew it would take a lot of hard work and sacrifice.
So I started to go to school more and concentrate on getting my high
school diploma, but I had gotten addicted to the street life. While I did
graduate, I still continued to live out in the streets.
Trying as hard as I could to be a productive member of society, I went to
computer school and started to earn a degree or two at college.
But upon
graduation from these schools of higher learning, I got involved with a young
lady who became pregnant and had a child for me.
Trying to become more responsible only led me back to the way of the
streets. Tiring of the regimentation of going back and forth to work, of being a
part of mainstream society, I became homeless and have been that way for quite
some time now. I guess if I were to
calculate the years it would be at least 25 years or better that I have been a
person who lives out in the streets.
It wasn’t
until I was introduced to the Grapevine that I even thought about turning
my life around. I enjoy meeting
people and interacting with the public, and I am doing something that I really
like. It is a shame that others
have in a sense put a bad name on the real meaning and purpose of the Grapevine.
I would like to clarify the fact that I am not a panhandler who is
looking for a handout. I am a
businessperson who sells the Grapevine as a means of supporting myself,
just like a person who is an auto mechanic, bus driver, secretary, etc.. I am a salesman in my own business of selling Grapevines
to get away from being a homeless person.
It is my hope that as I begin to increase my
network of circulation that this will be the last year of being homeless and to
finally accept responsibilities as a person who has some
intelligent God-Given-Talent!!!
In closing, I
would like to impart these words of wisdom. Being homeless is not a crime, the
crime is that we live in the best country on the face of this planet.
Despite all of the imperfections that America has, it is still basically
a country where if a person really wants to succeed and really has something
tangible in life, it is possible. So
the crime is that we the homeless can’t be too complacent.
We must take advantage of the opportunities that come our way and start
doing something for ourselves. If
we would exert the same energies toward obtaining a home as we do for surviving
the cruelties we face as homeless people, we could get somewhere.
If the people
who look down on the homeless would also take that energy to do something that
would make a difference and get people somewhere they could call home then life
would begin to be much better. But
as things are going now, it seems that neither those with homes or those who are
homeless want to meet on a common ground. Until
then I believe that either something really good must happen to a homeless
person to get them to get back in the flow of society or something really
tragic!!! If this doesn’t happen,
then I guess homeless people can do your crying for the living and hustling
their butter and their lard. ‘Cause
dying comes easy, it’s the living that’s hard.
From morning light to the setting sun, if you are homeless America, our
day has just begun.
Stay healthy
America, and remember, the only way homelessness can really leave America is if
we as Americans start sticking Together as Americans
and help those less fortunate than ourselves.